ill be back. wait

cant beliv u guys keep comin in..haih..thanx

askum..

yeah im sorry for the long gap.its just been too much for me to handle.the whole 2month-plus silence here was a complete opposite of wat im dealing in reality.in fact dalam maser dua bulan lebih nie la byk bende yg berlaku yg ako akan igt sampai mati.ako seriously tak rase nak bercerita pasal sumer2 tu sekarang.maybe one day ill pour it out.

n blog nie bukan lagi jadi tempat utk ako luah sumer bende.yes sharing is caring.sharing can ease the burden.but sumtimes it just brings more pain.more trouble to deal wif.n this place pernah jadi therapeutic time-off from evrithin.it always find it way to keep the happy-o-meter in me stable.but lately ako tak rase camtu.so aku lebih selesa berenti jap.well i think its the hectic life im having 4th year nie.i dunno how many thousand times ive complained but haih..its really2 tiring.plus alot has happen.so much that i really cant find time for me to write peacefully..n at this rate itll just add to my never-ending-to-do-list.which if they were magicly transform to a punching bag,i wud want to punch,kick WHACK them soo hard to make them go away.ahaa.melodramatic yeah i know.bt my point is,i wudnt want to treat my precious blog like that kan..so its best for me to put it on rest..maser tu...

byk benda dah berubah.aku tetap camni.but ako janji,ill be strong.n satu2 ako akan cube betulkan.one step at a time bak kata jordin.

n ako mintak maaf.sepanjang dua bulan nie gak aku rase ako lebih pentingkan diri sendiri.in a way to mend myself back.im very very very sory if sesaper in a way,hurt or mere terasa nagn aku.tadi babah suggested semorang smayng hajat utk aku.coz ive been moody long enuf to make him relize.ako bebetul rase takperlu n ntah ape2 tah my dad.but after smayang jemaah aritu cam biase n he really did.ako tetibe sgt sgt terharu.n sedar.aku takleh camnie selama2nya.i will get there back.kawan2 tahan skejap je lagi nagn aku.u know in my 22years of life.ni first time yg ako lari sejauh ini.maybe coz kali ini benda yg aku hadapi sgt besar dan bertimpa2 pulak.


ape tu?tulah tin2 coke yg menjadi obsesi aku one or 2 year back.(well one of).the 1st shelf is semua yg aku kumpul dari tempat2 yg ako dah gi.malaysia,mekah, madinah,thailand, ireland, london, n byk agi...

the second shelf? hadiah burfday aku dari iyas.sumer yg rare2 n collectors editn.he's been searching it thru net n get me those.kumpul sikit2.time by time.n he bought the exact number i had.he actually doubled my collection on my 22nd burfday.bagi aku,nilah ANTARA hadiah paling berharga aku penah dpt.dunt get me wrong,u know how much i really appreciate korang nyer gift.but it requires sumone who not just really understand me, but to be close enuff to even think of the idea to buy me those.

thanx iyas. not for just the coke.but just for being there, for evrithing..