aku malas

as simple as that.. alooot of thing in mind.dier asik suro update jer (wink).but i dunno.maybe later.owh i think its the holiday-mood...haha alasan si procrastinator mmg xkan abis.for the tyme bein, aku layan bende ni berulang2.huk..njoy~

its around the corner..again..

salam

at this rate i tot id stop bloggin...but i guess its just not happenin yet..now why the long pause?here's some thoughts..

1.expectation.
after long quite i tot ppl wud expect a grandiose entree.or atleast an explanation why ive been bz.i just dont think i cud meet those expectation.thats my weakness. i live to ppls expectation.when i cant make it,ill refrain.but nevertheless ill work n work n hardly satisfy.like b4 this entree sebnanyer dah byk unpublished post.i just tot its not that gud.why do i care?its my blog?i dunno..its just me

2.its been a roller coaster ride the past few month.emotionally.
i think all the feeling that exist ived experienced it the past few month.extremely happy.extremely sad.frustrated.sense of belonging.felt i hav to get it.love.betrayal.u name it. i guess i can say its one of the toughest time in my life that i dunt even have time to even deal with the reality.i know i luv to exaggerate but there's soo many things happen.sampai one day;

mama:ib tak ok2 lagi ker?masalah tak abis agi ker?
ib : er masalah ape pulak ma..ok jer kot..
mama:auntie rosie dr jeddah baru tanyer mama nape ib macam sedey jer
ib : hah!!!! auntie rosie??

then it occured to me.her son, ammar which happen to be one of the very very few malay teen guy mase kat jeddah dulu, reads my blog (ammar!!xyah betau mak ko koooot~ daym.huhu)

but thats only one part.im aloot happier now.ALOT.i did sumthin that i never tot i wud do.n its worth it.i luv my frens more.get to see clearer which one is true fren n which is not..im enjoyin my life more.i learnt to ignore things that once matters to me but does not worth to think off..

3.my 5mp sony ericsson was broken beyond repair.
the chronology was really tiring n long.dunt think i wanna elaborate here.but yeah its tiring.i luv the phone.my title pic pun gamba phone tu.in fact i even start bloggin wf wif the intention of showin my life thru pic from that phone.n now i dunt really hav pics to uploads.n i dunt fancy writing plain no event pic entree.daym.

4.procrastinating
duh.do i need to elaborate?xyah kot sila la rujuk entry2 dulu ek.haa i dunt think i eva will grow out of it.adoi

now why am i writing today.when i hve 441 lecture notes to go thru.yes ppl believe it!!! FOUR HUNDRED FOURTHY ONE freakin lecture notes.buku teks?huu.aa lu pikir la sendiri..our system were made in such we study several subjects from 3rd year but the professional exam wud be in year 4.i that is in 2 weeks times.nah 1week lebih skit.dang.nah..

DANG!!!!!!!!!!

korang..tolong doakan aku tau.off all the years, i really need it this year =(

the barring list is out.but its been well kept at 'that' department.y? now the speculation goes.they say the dean is out for a week next week.if they made it public this week then ramai yg dtg menangis n merayu to 'that' department n dean's rum earlier.yeah who wants to repeat the whole year becoz only clinical requirements.particularly from that department.further more its not soo much bcoz incompetent,but most of the cases,lack of patients..sum says the list has 15 ppl in it.now its being confirmed to reduced to 11 pll...

"Ya Allah jauhkan nama aku dan rakan2 rapat ku di dalam list tersebut.."

enuf depressing matter.im goin to deal wif it anyway..i cud not end my blabbing without mentioning the success of dental's annual dinner.its actually the last program under pantauan DENSTA 08/09.this year we wanted to make it diff.i want to set one standart where ppl actually waits for that event evry year..i want it to be a night for evryone to remember.of course for those who go.n for those who didnt,i want them to regret their decision to just sit alone at their pathetic rum n have a yearly event that put to effort by several dedicated densta member just for them.owh come on it shud be the annual dinner of dentistry faculty!

n alhamdulillah.it happen as planned.undoubtedly the best, THE BEST dinner the faculty has ever witness in its 10 years.im soo happy.i cant describe how i felt.they say our khidmat bakti in PPRTR pahang was once said the best since it was 1st started 8years ago.n now this.plus dental family day won the best program of the year.easily.plus its unanimously made an annual event of the faculty.note this not another densta's annual event,but the faculty wants to be part of it.the staff,the tutors,the lecturers...1st time ever in densta's event we received that kind of honour.ppl, u really make me proud.

mohd zulkifli kassim
badrul munir
farina berlian
anith farhana
karimah othman
asyraf azil
liyani rosli
fahmi ariffin
farhana mat hussin
elvarasikupusami
azmeer rosli
adilah awang

...im proud of u guys..cant make it without each n evryone of u guys..

im really am...

here's some pic of dental glam night.the theme was movie.brilliant.hav fun finding neo,red riding hood,austin powers n the gurls ,darth vader, the beast/the cursed prince, barry trotter , the cowboys ,cinderella , geisha ,cruella de vill ,arabian night dancers, princess arwen,ghost busters , n urh byk agi!! huu












for sum reason aku xleh susun gamba n description..so tgk jer la ek.huu.cant imagine several ppl in there were actually specialist.mmg sporting dr!! huu.n semorang pun.it was fun~

n ive just done this test on my addiction to internet n my score is 63 =(

50 -79 points: You are experiencing occasional or frequent problems because of the Internet. You should consider their full impact on your life.

u shud do it urself here

chiawz

the cycle

Salam

Its full moon tonight.its the cycle of the moon that i enjoy the most.esp ptg tadi hujan n the skies cudnt get any clearer than this.i relize i luv fullmoon.sumthin that i didnt appriciate that much dulu.maybe coz i have more time lookin at it now.just sitting on top of my study table n gaze lazily.looking at the full moon reminds me of cindy.how i tell her about the story when the moon’s gravity pull’s the tide,it also have the same effects on liquid in human’s brain.cousing several hormon to be flush in body n further cousing canine n bulu2 to tremodously grow.an explanation of the warewolf phenomenon.

She buys it.

Cute in a way.she always been the blur girl in the group.n always gets it from us.n she will happily lough together.i then relize.i luv my frens.not that i did not b4.but i think i appreciate them now more than i ever did.even when im still wif aisya its a hard fact that took her a lot(i really mean alot) to swallow that i value them soo much.im surprise that its even posibble to increase.

Shamil blurt to me one day about a cycle in evrione’s life.at first i tought its only one of his merepek-ings but as he goes it occured to me that its a theory that ive never heard b4 n it does explains alot of thing in life.aku rase ko patut paten kan bende ni mil...
According to him the lot of cyle in a our life.big n small.n now i hav remember he’s referring to a smaller circle in my life.the part when a person gets addicted n obsessed wif rock kapak.it sounds stupid(u understand now why i tried to dismiss the conversation at first?).but it makes a whole damn sense.for those of u who enjoys kapak,im sure there a point in ur life where u really admires the kapak’s singer,sings kapak’s song in the bathroom,being shouted at bcoz u plays it too loud, n now ure just listen to it n says ‘sempoi dowh lagu ni..dulu aku suke giler babi...’.but u wudnt put it in ur ipod’s on-the-go playlist.well ppl.my kapak cycle has just started.aku baru dengar lagu2 cam hanya satu persinggahan,perhentian.bayanagn gurauan,takdir dan waktu,untukmu sayang,kamelia..n the list goes.i know pathetic.but i cant stop listening to the now.but according to him this,the kapak fever, will fade.(kudos to iyas yang HANDPICK 80 kapak song in his playlist n gave it to me.a small action at the right time cud change history.well iyas u plays a MAJOR role in my kapak cycle.as well as the other cycle in mylife.)

N now im gazing the bright moon.im slowly moving down to the lower part of the bigger cycle of my teenagers life.i was once the PMUKM.the dental’s faculty MPP.the board of majlis pemimpin.i once implement new rules.new point of view.even re-branding DENSTA.n there i was, last week, sitting at the very end of DSG ktsn watching the glorious ceremony of 4kl’s prelude.i stand there alone for quite some time.looking at mil giving speech,the subprograms booth,the butterflies.... the whole prelude idea was actually mine.well made to reality,perfected by the commitee that year.a small event to launch the grandiosness of 4kl.if theres such word.credit to my superb team that year.4kl07.the best group of organization ive been in.its an honour to work with u guys that time.it has mould me into a diff person.teach me alot in life.good n bad.going back to the prelude,as i was reminiscing n wished the whole team was there beside me to see how 4kl has evolve,leman joined me.n he shares his experiance as a tiny AJK.the whole new concept of pemasaran,the big event with 11 subprogram..he didnt know if ever he can be in the line of ppl standing giving speeches n deligating jobs in the perjumpaan mega. N now, he’s the ex pemantau of a program as big,fiesta citra budaya.he’s in the very line of JAKSA ppl last batch.

N me?

Ive grow old.i still have to remind myself the event was 2 years back...im old.
N another 2 week im going to let go the YDP’s title of DENSTA.leaving the legacy that ive imprint.cam poyo jerk.but i really make it a point as when this finally comes,i want to archieve certain stuff.Alhamdulliah i did.again with the help of my committee.ill extend my full-length gratitude next two week k.

My point is.im leaving the peak.im now returning to that nobody.no one greets me anymore when i arrive in bangi.there’s no reason for pegawai faculty call me anymore,i have no right to lepak2 kat pejabat dekan anymore,theres no need to anyone to listen to me anymore.fuh .wow..
Gosh... n i lost that person yg supports me like hell.=(

it makes me felt kinda stupid but yeah its 4the best...

bajat said...

to ibrahim a.k.a ib a.k.a blow ;p hehehe just kidding pal..

looking at ur personality, the way u treat all of ur friends, which is sgt2 baik (seriously speaking) kadang2 aku terfikir yg ko deserve hidup yg lebih bhg, tp saper tau kan, mungkin cabaran ini yg buatkan anda lebih tabah + bahagia..semua tu Allah yg tentukan, psati ada hikmah..kami di sini ib, warga medic ukm will always be with u, rindukan zaman2 kiter kat ktsn hehehe gelak2 dlm toilet, that was 2 years back, cepatnyer maser berjalan..tp aper2 pun, u will always be in our prayers,inysaAllah

smile always ib and be strong ;)

January 23, 2009 12:01 AM

I beg to differ bajat.i really dunt think that i treat my fren that nice.kalo tak takkan la ader org benci kat aku.i dunno.due to an unexpected event,i randomly tried grab this guy from my fac n then stared him in the eyes n said

“Zul,i need an honest answer.yes or no....in ur knowledge,do u know that if there’s anybody who hates me?yes or no”

Sadly he look away.n says he dunt really know.i have poured evrithing i have.ive sacrificed all the time in the world so that my faculty is seen in a better way.i regret,i really2 regret that sumwhere along the path ive created ppl that hates me.

N aku deserve hidup yg lebih bahagia?bajat.. selain ujian yg aku tgh hadapi skang( n its lifting up.im happier now) i dunt want a happier life.i wudnt want to change wat i have now,my parent,n that bunch of ppl surround me now( that implies to YOU) to anything.i might hav been telling sad part of my life now,bt i assure u i really had aloooooot of fun gak.anyhow,ur comment really put a smile in my face.n naim,lala,fazrul i appreciate ur comment too.
Alle n bebrapa org ckp my blog entries has gotten too emo.bertahan yek korang.if krg tgk aku kat facebook n fac berhepi sakan,this is wat i really felt now.no i havent past that dark tunnel.but now im seing the light.ill get there.il get there soon.

N on a whole diff matter.karpal blows up wat according to him has been kept for quite some time.he said anwar harus bertaubat.directly quote -bertaubat..does he even knows wat that means?but yeah according to him he starts teh trend of ppl start lompat2 parti.now that it backfires on them baru nak tergadah?n whose fault do think when now semorang nak demonstrate? From beribu becoz political issues to 50 becoz harga tol.infront of tanah runtuh till infront of istana kinta? Who start the trend?who pollute these young malay mind?i read this letter from a concerned malay,he said that anwar sepatutnya bertanggungjawab terhadap perpecahan orang melayu sekarang.thats really big.considering melayu sekarang dah berpecah jauuuuuuuh becoz politik.i mean yeah watever issues says the existing goverment faulty.well now when the other group pgg pon nampak byk sgt faulty.rasuah,lompat,scandal.wat im saying is it happen as long as human exist.anywhere whoever.but becoz of certain man’s ambition to become prime minister perpecahan yg KETARA ni berlaku?whose to blame? Doesnt the guy has a point?

Call me bias.wat do i care.ada org called me bitch dah.n even says fuck to me.yeah ure angry,but penah ako ckp fuck kat ko when im angry?haih

Cant wait to get out of all this.....this is tiring.

p/s: had alooot to talk about program kesihatan mulut komuniti in terengganu.not in the mood
pp/s: had alooot of fun at pgl s3.it was superb.but tak amik satu gamba pun
ppp/s: had some updates pasal umah but xde mud coz phone wat hal.n today takder pic pun.later kot

untuk kau

salam,
em aku nak sampaikan sikit jer ape yg terbuku kat ati aku.ako selesa camni.they say its easy to forget but hard to forgive.i cud work on that but 1st i need to let it out.

untuk kau,
ape yg aku nak ckp,aku dah ckp.kau perlu pikir dalam2 sekarang.nasihat aku,pick back watever uve missed dulu.maybe u dunt even know they exist.but there's more to life than just one thing.n as my dad wud always emphasize..priority..aku cam byk sgt nak ckp denagn ko.i wish im there now to just sit.n talk.but nope life is never fair.so idup dgn bermaruah n berguna pd masyarakat.(wats that??but yeah..)

untuk mama,
thanx sebab bawak ib gi village park agi breakfast tadi.we've gone there so many times that ive addicted to it.next time around,milo dinosor k!.n sori now taht ive broke up baru ib citer sumer bende kat mama.tapi ib just taktau nak buat camtu dulu.ib tau kakak,hajar n baby sgt rapat nagn mama n citer sumer bende.tapi cam mama pun tau ib bukan camtu.ib rase xsesuai citer kan masalah2 ib ke aper kat mama.let me figure out myself ow to deal wif my stuff.nevertheless, even by not sayin a word u always be there from behind n be ever so supportive.u know i luv u more than anywords i cud say.

untuk kau,
aku rase dah bagitau ko.aku skang tgh bereksperimental nagn diri ako.aku mintak maap kalau aku ader tersakitkan ati ko.aku rase aku tak suke aku yg camnie so this time around aku jadi aku yg dulu.terima jerk.ahak.cumer kadang2 tu sakit ati gak nagn ko.rase nak balas n bgi ko paham.tapi guess aku dah immune n that not how things work.it just it sumtimes gets me when i sumtimes dunt understand wat actually happen at that side in ur world.n i dunno how to make ur life happier as u make mine..ape2 pun if there is ever 1 thing aku takkan exchange wif evrithing in this world,besides my parents,that wud be u.n aku sgt sgt hepi.n aku rase ape yg aku leh buat skang nie just ada kat sini,tunggu n doakan ko hepi.in all way taht posible.study,life n sumer2.

untuk kau,
Selamat hari jadi lagi skali.bloggrs edition.this is unusual tapi kadang2 ako rase ko cara ko pikey terlalu matang.take a step back n enjoy zaman nie.'cycle' ko skang takkan dapat ulang.i cant help but to see myself dlm ko maser cycle nie.n now ko dah ader responsibility yg lebih besar.n cam ako ckp,aku tak nampak sesaper lagi yg buler amik setapak lagi kehadapan dari apa yg ako n farid dah usahakan melainkan korang yg kitornag pilih.well not all la kan u know who,hehe. aku taknak influence ur decision dah by talkin too much.but whose fault for being the best listener in my 22 lyfe.when i talked to u i realize sumtimes its too much.all the classified stuff just flow out.but yeah it never failed to make me feel better..huu.n yeah tq for that too..

untuk ko,
nape ko baik sgt nagn ako nie?ape ko nak dari ako.tapi aku harap ure just tryin to be a gud fren.n aku rase mmg camtu pun.cuma kdg2 aku tak sangka org cam ko ader lagi.masyaAllah sgt baik dlm menjaga persahabatan.aku harap aku pun akan jadi sahabat yang baik cam ko.=P

untuk kau,
gudlak utk interview ko.ako arap u just nail it.aku percaya ko bule dpr yg terbaik dlm idup.cuma kadang2 ko kene kembali balik pada diri dan keluarga.tgk balik tindakan2 ko yg rase salah.n tak terlalu lambat lagi nak betulkan.dan ko tu abg sulung n u know how ur parent ko letakkan harapan kat ko.jgn hampakan drg.i now diri remaja ko ckp takpe utk ko hav fun tapi cam aku kate,kembali balik pada nilai2 keluarga kita.aku?sentiasa akan doakan ko.xyah risau pasal tu.n bagi nasihat yg pada aku yang terbaik..tu pun kalo ko mintak...for now,gudluck interview n exam nanti

untuk ko,
ako tak sangka yg pahaman politik boleh buat camni kat ko.ako hormat ko atas ilmu n pegangan ko.tapi ape ko buat kat ppukm aritu sgt sgt menyentuh ati.ko buleh tipu aku bulat2 depan muke aku ckp korang nak guna buat amanat pengetua.padahal pengetua korang ada kat putrajaya.pastu ko busukkan nama lawan ko konon2 panggil untuk bagi ucapan pastu dier takder n korang ckp dier takleh bagi komitmen?padahal korang tak panggil pon dia.yg paling aku menyirap dengar,ko biarkan jer anak buah ko tinggi2 suara kat timb pengetua? setinggi mana pun impian ko dlm politik,lebih2 lagi nama islam yg ko bawak,jagalah adap.igt la balik apa tujuan ko menceburkan diri dlm bidang ni pun.kalau selain demi islam pun pasti untuk kebajikan org bwh ko.tapi all this?ako kecewa sgt.sgt.n nie takder kene mengena nagn politik,if i wud blab about that,itll be soo long that ko pun meluat nak bace.this is about u.n the thing u let slip hanya untuk kuasa.haih

untuk kakak,
i know ure happy were not movin to putrajaya.the desicion has not been easy.bergelen2 minyak kete merc babah dah abiskan n god know aper lagi utk decide samer2.i just wish ure here thru evrithin.but now its over n kitorang dah start renovate umah mcm yg kite plan awal.insyaAllah by bulan 3 dah bole masuk dah.
the parkin lot as u know kite nak ratekan n widen the gate.pastu ader tangga kecik nak g garden n nak masuk pintu.sweet.pasni 4cars leh masuk.xde letak2 luar lagi.unless ure brigin one from dublin la kan..


n my fav part is the plaster ceiling.we're fightin wif babah not to put the 'takaful'-shaped on the plaster n sumting elegent instead.n i thank god we won.=P

ps-u shud see faizal tahir on AJL.bukak utube.damn proud of him.damn good.damn talented.


untuk krg yg buat malam ranggoli,
i think its a hit.the epic touch was classic.see we malaysian might not being expose of indian's epic n myth.more of malay's pgl,hangtuah,n wat not.its a great move.n to see all races together being facinated,i think its sumtin amazing.
ako rase beruntung utk berada dlm generasi nie.munkin ramai lagi yg masih ada sifat perkauman dlm hati.tapi aku rase ia sgt2 tebal dlm gen atas2 kita.the stereotype tu mmg dah terpahat.kalau india jer camnie...kalau cine jer camtu...tapi aku beruntung dpt idup denmgan kawan2 aku yg dah bebetul rapat n xkesah perkauman camtu.aku rase at sumpoint xpelah kalau semorang lupa nagn sejarah pun asalkan the atmosphere mase malam rangoli tu lived evriday.at sumpoint jer la..cuma aku sgt sgt suka tgk malaysia aman camni.budak2 melayu n ciner pinjam2 baju india n ramai2 pakai.gelak2 pulak sama2.sibuk2 nak tangkap ga,bar...ahhh sgt tenang

just as side note,i think hindraf gesa kerajaan india boycott malaysia is bullshit.wateve perjuangan korang pun.ure raised up in malaysia.watever ur grudge pon,u live now sumhow beco of malaysia.the food the shelter the very soil.in this stage i think i have to totally agree wif hamid alba,LEAVE.the extremist i mean.my other indian frens,i luv u guys.

n untuk ko,

stop merepek n start living like wat ure suppose to be.aku malu biler orang sebut org yg lead kumpulan drg sgt bagus n pencapaian itu ini.n burung2 kecik jumper ko nak wat sumthin yg cud actually naikkan nama kumpulan kita,ko plak berlagak pandai mcm dah lama idup dlm society burung.padahal semua burung2 senior pun benci kat ko.arh pressure aku ada kat bwh ko.let us fly freely dude.let us show the world wat we're capable of.nanti bila burung pemberita dtg ko sibuk2 nak drg interview ko,tangkap gambar siap kuar card suro call bebile mase.perangai ko tu memalukan tau tak!aih enuff

n cam biasa untuk ko,
aku sgt appreciate ko sebab bace gak bebelan aku sampai abis.ahak.but seriously i appreciate u =P

taktau per tajuk yg seswai..em mrepek?

salam

b4 start tulis panjang2 nie.ako harap semorang leh sama2 sedekahkan fatihah untuk jiran aku yg baru meninggal smalam.aku baru balik dr kenduri arwah beliau.Pn Awasilahatikitajriah disahkan mengidap kanser payudara dah lama.n b4 hari smalam barah tu dah merebak to her liver n paru2 kot.ntah but yg penting dah metastasis... Pn Awasi boleh aku katekan antara cikgu tuisyen 1st aku..she was a headmaster n conduct hometuition kat umah dier which is 5-6 house away from mine.kat situlah aku gi malam nagn member2 yg aku bebetul rindu sekarang..anak dier sorang batch aku..which aku cam dah taktau buat ape skang..tadi nampak pun sekali imbas jer.anak sulung dier plak a Victorian.cam ako...he tot me how to ride my 1st intrakota.from the heart of kl.thanx adra..now that she's gone it really makes me relize how fast thing goes..n i miss those days..i miss going to her house...tak sangka arini gi untuk baca yasin utk arwah..

al-fatihah

esok dah 3minggu aku dah 'xde paper' ngan aisya. 3 solid week n i still cant get over it.iyas mara ako to igt2 camnie.he said wats over is over.the past.i dunno i really hope its thats simple.but its kinda not..shamil plak asked iyas whether it really happen.guess now when aisya dah delete me n all my friends yg kwn nagn dier gak from fs,fb n block her blog,i guess yeah it really happen mil.guess, no...i hope she's not reading this blog anymore pun..bukan sebab apa maybe thats her way to get over things..but i tot its clear that night that we're still friends.considerin wat we had b4,..but yeah its not easy for her.we deal it our own way.im not blaming her.

now it looks like aku nak meraih simpati ker ape.i swear thats not wat im doin..guess when i block my blog n private kan,i can write freely kot..like quite few of my frens..i dunno

lucky skang nie ako cam sebuk skit.yelah pilihanraya is on the corner..bule pikey bende2 lain skit.all im doin now kat bilik lepas balik kelas tgk the whole series of heroes,house,prison break,how i met ur mother n mcm2 agi..the only time when i can concentrate studyin is maser kat study group jer.nothing in my room that doesnt remind me of watever i shudnt be reminded of.aish aku rase cam poyo sgt camni.tapi aku stress.sgt.biler kuar bilik n gi kelas jer i get to be that happy-go-lucky-bising2-ceria2-wat2-lawak-ib.but inside aku cam cant shke it off.i cant imagine wats aisya is goin tru.i really2 hope she's alright.sumpah sgt sgt harap..

dr syuriana kate aku sgt sgt muda lagi.she even advice me to stop fishing n start menjala instead.dier kater kalau husband dier tak ajak kawin dier pun nak lek2 jer dulu..ahaa sempoi.but now she's more than happy lagi2 nagn that brilliant norman kid yg nak masuk 6tahun dah pun...ckp2 pasal nie aritu aku berborak ngan hazim.dier tunggu burger n we talked sampai burger die rpun dah sejuk..iyas dah abis makan dinner dah kat bilik.sowi.uhuu.but it was worth it.dier citer mcm2.sgt2 byk sampai aku terlopong.hazim nie salah sorang jenis kawan aku yg sgt2 rare but yg buler cerita samapi buat aku yg bising nie denagr jer.hee seronok kdg..n no doubt i still look up on him.sumer dier citer dari dinner kolej,to kwn2 lama,to kapel2 ktdi,to scandal2 smapaila to part yg paling mengejutkan aku...perbalahan 2pemimpin.yg aku bebetul2 dunthav a clue b4 nie..sadly dah lama dah..aihh

hazim ckp skang nie dah suntuk sgt.were 22.pasnie dah masuk alam pekerjaan.paling menakutkan kitorang borak sgt dalam pasal isu bercinta2 ni n sampai alam perkahwinan.senior2 n rkan2 kita yg dah kawin.n pasal life itself.corak pemikiran dier sgt sgt matang n aku sgt kagum bender tu.lepas kuar dr cafe tu it hit me really hard.weyh nape aku cam kanak2 lagi nie?

but i humbly beg to differ hazim...now dah pk2 balik i dunt want to grow taht fast.i dunt want to rush to adulthood.or atleast get the fullest of wat im having now.the life i know i wont get back after graduate....

yeah aku sgt suke lari skang.n my best hideout place is tempat 'itu'.walaupun i didnt get to talk n luahkan perasaan ker aper.tapi aku rase tenang sgt.n aku rase disokong dari segenap arah.n biler aku keluar aku rase cam aku leh hadapi skit demi skit.aih.sgt suke.aku harap tempat tu tak ditutup dan sentiasa terbukak utk aku dtg..=)

adoi..best nyer membebel takder isi camnie.just biar jer tgn aku nak type ape2.i dunt want to hold back.dulu im sgt2 kesah ape org nak kate.poyo ke best ker.tapi aku rase tu salah.xperlu buat ape2 utk impress org.buat utk aku hepi.n kwn2 yg betul sure hepi bile aku hepi.provided aku tak sakitkan hati drg la kan?heen now mood dah takder.itll make me happy to stop writing n baring2 jer.muahah.so bye korang

ps i luv u guys =P

ill be back. wait

cant beliv u guys keep comin in..haih..thanx

askum..

yeah im sorry for the long gap.its just been too much for me to handle.the whole 2month-plus silence here was a complete opposite of wat im dealing in reality.in fact dalam maser dua bulan lebih nie la byk bende yg berlaku yg ako akan igt sampai mati.ako seriously tak rase nak bercerita pasal sumer2 tu sekarang.maybe one day ill pour it out.

n blog nie bukan lagi jadi tempat utk ako luah sumer bende.yes sharing is caring.sharing can ease the burden.but sumtimes it just brings more pain.more trouble to deal wif.n this place pernah jadi therapeutic time-off from evrithin.it always find it way to keep the happy-o-meter in me stable.but lately ako tak rase camtu.so aku lebih selesa berenti jap.well i think its the hectic life im having 4th year nie.i dunno how many thousand times ive complained but haih..its really2 tiring.plus alot has happen.so much that i really cant find time for me to write peacefully..n at this rate itll just add to my never-ending-to-do-list.which if they were magicly transform to a punching bag,i wud want to punch,kick WHACK them soo hard to make them go away.ahaa.melodramatic yeah i know.bt my point is,i wudnt want to treat my precious blog like that kan..so its best for me to put it on rest..maser tu...

byk benda dah berubah.aku tetap camni.but ako janji,ill be strong.n satu2 ako akan cube betulkan.one step at a time bak kata jordin.

n ako mintak maaf.sepanjang dua bulan nie gak aku rase ako lebih pentingkan diri sendiri.in a way to mend myself back.im very very very sory if sesaper in a way,hurt or mere terasa nagn aku.tadi babah suggested semorang smayng hajat utk aku.coz ive been moody long enuf to make him relize.ako bebetul rase takperlu n ntah ape2 tah my dad.but after smayang jemaah aritu cam biase n he really did.ako tetibe sgt sgt terharu.n sedar.aku takleh camnie selama2nya.i will get there back.kawan2 tahan skejap je lagi nagn aku.u know in my 22years of life.ni first time yg ako lari sejauh ini.maybe coz kali ini benda yg aku hadapi sgt besar dan bertimpa2 pulak.


ape tu?tulah tin2 coke yg menjadi obsesi aku one or 2 year back.(well one of).the 1st shelf is semua yg aku kumpul dari tempat2 yg ako dah gi.malaysia,mekah, madinah,thailand, ireland, london, n byk agi...

the second shelf? hadiah burfday aku dari iyas.sumer yg rare2 n collectors editn.he's been searching it thru net n get me those.kumpul sikit2.time by time.n he bought the exact number i had.he actually doubled my collection on my 22nd burfday.bagi aku,nilah ANTARA hadiah paling berharga aku penah dpt.dunt get me wrong,u know how much i really appreciate korang nyer gift.but it requires sumone who not just really understand me, but to be close enuff to even think of the idea to buy me those.

thanx iyas. not for just the coke.but just for being there, for evrithing..

confession of a procrastinator..

salam..

i swear when i said 'u might see my new post when its raya', i really dunt mean it.its just an expression on how lazy i can be.banyak giler i want to blab about...but being the procrastinator i am(ako rase dah terlalu bayk gune alasan ini.uhuu), its really raya tomorrow.byk benda nak tulis but end up only in my mind.thats the worst part of procrastinating.u end up not doing it at all.n the blog itself didnt represent my lyfe anymore.it doest really potray the ups n down of my life.the pictures i wanted to share,n the tots i have in mind.terlalu banyak dugaan.the internet connection for an instnce,the uploading pic hassle,ermm enuff said.anyhow i really2 appreciate U who reads my blog. =P

like now.i admit.i really miss this time around.for the past 2-3years,ive been spending my near raya time with driving from a place to another.not to meet sedara mara but to settle the list given from my dear family whose living in jeddah(not anymore.thank god)it can go on n on from kerepek pisang at chow kit,to the all time favorite tart nenas in bangsar to pusat penterjemahan negara to translate my younger sister's cert whose studying in mesir.my part of life pulak,the hell load of things i need to settle in faculty like denture design to present,ortho's wire bending to approve,casting the study model,DENSTA programs to sort,obviously didnt help with the pressure.plus catching flight has never been so troublesome.but as far as i cud remember the hard past 2yrs, my best fren iyas wud never miss sending me off or waiting for my arrival.yeah he does his sulky face which he claimed to be 70% of his expression but at that point n considering emotional-wise,i wud rather chop my limb than having to book a cab or dealing wif erl's tix.gila melo-dramatic but yeah it really2 helps..n raya celebration in jeddah wud mean ill be gettin my jubah ready and start on a journey to makkah the night before.as the whole kingdom of saudi (melo-drama AGAIN) wants to sembahyang raya in masjidil haram,the sesakness is like 20-30 times the sesak ure dealing in updown 2-3days before raya(wat a comparison..).then ull have ppl selling balloons like its some kind of carnival n super duper sweet baklava is evriwhere.then by zohor evrione wud be at their houses sleeping.perfect

well its a total opposite this year.its soo worth to have spent twice as much for both money(oil price shoots up) n time(u dunt want me to start blabbing bout jam in kl) to drive home after class.the table is full with decent food for break-fast.n the whole family wud go to terawih together.n hav our own set of moreh kat umah..not to mention the kitchen r now filled with the aromatic rendang smell.really mencabar iman.yeah i have to lap meja larh,mop lantai larh,tuka2 position of the furniture,pegi pasar,but its soo much diff.i mean it felt soo right.like i nearly forgotten how it feels like to have a real HARI RAYA..n yes this year i manage to buy a full set of baju melayu.cant wait to wear it tomorrow..just to make it better, tonite ill be going with damansara's group to do house to house takbir.i cant believe im 22 n its the first time im goin for marhaban.yeah there's alot of things in life we too k for granted.

talking bout my age,this year i hav the most peaceful burfday in my entire life.no fancy celebration at 12am,no stupid jokes,i only get one burfday card which is from my mum(with envelope inside *wink*).on the 18th,my mum cooked nasi ayam(i swear its soo nice that i add 3 times!!HOHO) n after terawih,my lovely cuzin kak long bought a lovely cake n we ate together.n owh kerol,fazrul n liyana took the extra effort to buy big apple donuts n we ate them at mosin mamak.thanx ppl.its was actuallty sweet.i think ive been pampered too much.last year alone i had 3sets of diff celbration n cakes.but this year i got to reflect myself more.no its not so much of the celebration,its a reminder of how ure gettin older n the piling responsibility wont get lighter.the kind of problems ure facing is in a whole wider scale n u just have to deal with them.no more running.i thank god that im still here n been reminded of that.

aper serious sgt nie..to lighten up,here two of my fav item this year.

YEAH!!! a new rim from my dad.i wanted that since like forever..thanx bah!!

n on my burfday itu, teteibe ader sorang mamt nie called me n kate nak hantar brg.i was totally in the dark.i tot itwas regarding my latest project,dental's family day..when it turn out to be this!!


do u actually know wats the feeling when ppl say 'cair beb!!!' well thats exactly how i felt.cam for 10 second my body takleh function.i sgggggt sgggt appreciate u took the trouble to send that to me aisyah,THANX huney!!!

n last week before balik penang iyas bunjer kat marche.its a damn nice place.i promise ill go there again sumday n post the pic..

actually ader bebrapa lagi hadiah ako dapat.one of them is from shah!!thanx!!!suke2

haiah..naper byk sgt membebel today?sukatilah ni blog ako.muahahhah.u think im done?not yet ppl not yet

yesterday me n hussein talks bout breaking-fast n all the usual lame jokes.then he tells me on how the aboy plays mercun soo near to him that the instantly reminded of his days in iraq.he said that right after the bang of mercun he instinctively (betul ke eja tu) move aside n wait for the police to gather.he said that was the normal drill when there s a bomb attack in iraq.he then satisfy my inquisitive mind n that lead to how he escapes death in the middle of the sick war in iraq.well not once.TRICE.yeah u read it right,he nearly died three times in iraq.first is when he park his car n n went out to buy stuff.minutes later theres a bomb attack n his car was totally gone.the blast was so strong that he said that he can barely differentiate the remnants of his car to pepsi cans a boy selling near the bomb side.he have to carry his brother,13(i think) who is having a panic attack as its his first time,watching pieces of human body all over the place.either bloody or burnt.
the second story were more intense as he n his 2 frens were cought in the middle of war tanks(!!!!!) an a troop of live-bullet-shooting(duh) terrorist.damn we only sees that in movie or in games man.he actually in the middle of it.when answering on wat in his mind at that time,he said he just prayed that he's being accepted to heaven.wow.
i really cant recall now when is the third time but i think the story goes around when theres a sudden gunshot at the american army in an open place.their respond to it?after the attck stops the american army make an announcement.but obviously the announcement was in english n the poor older generation can hardly understand "evrione were to gather her in this spot n lie down with ur hands on ur head" n these ppl wud get beaten as if their lower than animals(exact same word wif hussein's) the american army wud smashed their head on cars mirror,hit them wif thir rifles n A.Ks.drag them by their hair,smashed their head n stomach.he told me that when these ppl finally reach the spot where they shud gather,theyre already covered with blood from head to their toe.

now after reading all that,ure still ungrateful to live in malaysia?u n students still can heads up n shout that u guys r being suppress??terpenjara,terkongkong n all??malaysian ppl r livin under klekejaman n tertindas?oleh some maha-zalim pemerintah?bullshit.u guys r just being manipulated by those political leader as their pawn.when r u guys goin to relize this.altho im too,very glad that paklah is finally steppin down but that not the point.

haa seryesly this is officially 'the membebel posting'
ok last2,

yesterday was one of those awesome evening..i went out for buka puasa with the most random ppl.u wudnt guess.at first,we decided to meet at klcc's chiles but witness'ing the long que, we changed our mind and book a place in california pizza instead.it was cool.we all shared a bbq chic pizza which the discription says 'our most popular pizza' .plus i orderd creme fettucine n chic.


SHUHUD my ex senior who was just appouinted to be a new tutor ordered carbonara.when im in 1st year,we went to korea together for APDSA.the dental version of AMSA.together plus apai n sumtimes dr muzaffar,we form group X.slalu ponteng n paling bayak merayau sanerr sini.hee.


n the ladies shared their pasta.diet la tu..KAK BIAH pula is shuhud's batch.aka my ex senior jugak.she's LOUD.she's currently working as fido posting in temerloh.kesian,3rd raya dah oncall.makes me appreciate my student life more =P


the other person yg accompany kitorang is......

wait for it....


yes!!!! dr Sha-syu!!! err dr sharifah syuriana...sgt sgt la hip dr kerana sama2 melayan kitorang.well i cant really say that,coz she's too,the same type.she wud gossip n makes jokes.she's soo cool that i think she's the only speacialist in our faculty with a BLOG.yes..
A BLOG
but i cant link it her upon her request.she likes it lay-low kateneyr.yeah if i were a lecturer,i wudnt want my student n all their frens know that im soo much into mamma mia =p (sowie dr! hee)
(p/s-mamma mia is soooo awesome.u shud watch)

lepas tu kitorang teman kak biah shoppin.

kak biah:takpelah ako kan BANYAAK DUET!!
ib:omaigod kak.giler vavavoom statement..nak record
shuhud:pehal ko nak record?
ib:nak dgr tiap2 malam utk motivasi nak grad lagi setahun lebey
dr shasyu:ahhahahahaha ade2 jer korang nie

so bein banyak duet she bout herself a new purse.GUESS to match her handbag.the ladies punyerla berpusing,me n syuhud cam jalan jer ikot drg.lawak tol


the pic was after we enter kedai spec lak when she decided she wants a new spec in OT.

mak aih.tak sabarnyer nak grad.n again they do their thing n end up buyin a FCUK frame.

shuhud n me cam biasa kebosanan.


dr Syashu plak beli kasut nike comel nak mampus for her 5 year old son.lepas penat bershoppin,we decided to rest n lepak2.being a coffeelover she is,dr ajak gi starbux n she paid!! very generous of her.terima kasih daun keladi lah yer dr.nanti kuar2 blanjer lagi!!hehe

it was fun.n for the cam-hunting session,guess who i found?

this guy look sooo much like saddam hussein kan??haa.shuhuds the one saw it him first n insist i took a pic.mmg la cuak koot n zoom jauh2 jerk x brani gi dekat.hee

k ppl..esok raya!so i wish all of u A VERY BLESSFUL EIDULFITRI N MAAF ZAHIR BATIN k!! n for non muslim,n joy ur cuti!

taa..

perjalanan jauh tak kurasa~ (yeah coz im asleep)

salam

i know.the news is sooo yesterday.i mean its been there for ages. yes ppl,facebook has far left friendster behind.bt putting those small ego aside, i finally opened an account! yaa i know.."baru nak bukak???"

but hey its never too late..

late is better than never..

save the last for the best..
(gosh thats sooo random.whudduuuup~)

k fine fine!! i cant rely convince to u thats its actually ok to be THIS late,but yeah ive got an facebook accont now!huu n im kinda addicted to it.hee.hampir menganak-tirikan blog ini.huu.(touch wood =P (am i using it the right way?))so here, add ako k!

my facebook link

cam biasa..there alooot of thing happening around me.from the smallest thing to the bigger ones..semalam ako balik kampug.my dad's side in perak.i admit, i was reluctant b4. we were suppose to go back last weekend.i manage to skip thanx to dr shahida's assigment.n so i lepak at kolej that weekend.a rare thing after my parent moved back in malaysia.i tot i could enjoy the moment but after a while..on my way back from mcD for my sahur,my brother texted me n said taht hajar,my younger sister was admitted to damansara speacialist center after an horrible episode of puking n diarhea.mind u it was 2am.so pas subuh tu i rushed back as my dad said there's no point if i were to go back in that instance as the ward can only accomodate 3-4 ppl.eh why am i tellin u all this?wat wanna say is the trip to kampung was obviously cancelled.so last week my dad insisted we go on a day trip.malam we got potluck buka puasa with my mom's side of family.n so the i-wish-im-somewhere-else-journey started.kitorang gerak dari rumah at 645am camtu.pas subuh.

yeah of course thats not subuh.im too busy snoring to snap pic back then.huu.after several hours n a quick stop for dhuha, we finally arrive.n it then snapped me.how i missed this place..

in an instant all the draggy feelin just vanished in the kampung's soft breeze.seriously.i mean then only i relized those days when i really looking forward to balik kampung.Cycle around n find fireflies.stuff them inside jar just to find theyll be dead the next day,the baling selipar,the kejar-kejar..


the very reason of my crazy obsession to cempedak goreng..


the games that i cud never master..


the delicious meal they make here.note that their still using tembikar to cook tempoyak( n they say its excelent for curry too)..tho im not a big fan of tempoyak,but they say its nice =P.but this, i just cant resist.easily nominated as one of my favourite,


pajeri terung~

in the other hand,ive never seen pulasan this big


see wat i mean?its half of my hand.n for those yg taktau( well i know who u r!! =P) pulasan is a subspecies(pandai2 jerk ako) of rambutan...as it has quite thick kulit,to open it u need to..


duh~ PULAS!!

n thats it.taht succulent,juicy pulasan is ready to eat =P

n the sweetest part is maser nak balik,they all went out so waved us.awwww


im definately looking forward to go balik kampung this raya.my dad are organizing a family gathering for the Abu Bakar family..well its not as easy as it sound.my dad has 14 siblings.n each of them dah kawin n hav MINIMUM 3 childern.(some 5-7) n a whole lot of them has married n have their own family.n mind u their scattered all over malaysia.tough job.tedious planning.but itll be sooo worth it.i cant wait

n owh btw i got a cat now.i mean my sister have a cat now.but practically he's at home so we all plays with him.



after an over-stretch list of name,we decided to name it FRANKFURT HELSINKI (gile hantam jerk spelling.but thats how its pronounce).but we call him FRANKIE.dont ask me where do they got the name becoz i really dont know.but i recall my dad wants to name it khalid al waled.haahaa.sgt tak seswai to be a pet's name.

erm i really2 want to write more but ntah, ill save it for later la k.(maybe after raya?haai come on ib!! =P).till then i leave u guys with a pic of this man i took after terawikh's moreh.

ok for those yg paham, u may start to lough....



wait for it~


NOW!!!


*taaa*

its a chaos

wooo.kemunculan entry baru secara misteri.....


ok fine!! lame joke..recently ktsn had its occasional foggin..

im sorry

im sincerely am.

sorry that i succumb to my lazyness.sorry to 'betray' ur effort to click to my link to the blog.i mean i really understand the feeling u had when u opened a blog just to see its lack of new updates.(lagi2 kamu yg pergi ke cc just 4that,sorry)

its been a chaos in malaysia.my patients canceled his treatment that day coz his father had to go to bengkel.his car's window was smashed recently in permatang pauh.apparently he forgot to peel the 'jabatan perdana menteri' office sticker off.sick.n now for the first time a blog is being blocked.for obvious reason.latest,that guy is now in parliament.n today declares that we're still not truly 'merdeka'.we're being ruled by our own community.great.he's such a great thinker/manipulator?deny all the bloods n teardrop spilt by the real nasionalist (from Tunku himself to tok janggut to Ibu Zain..) n keep coming with these idea.n now the budget is out n it favours the rakyat.all they can say is the budget is populist n tryin to gain rakyat's heart.so now we shud ignore the rakyat n continue on development?he knew that its utopia is imposible n we cant archive evrithin in the same time.Gosh its sooo easy to be the opponent.even with holding the position i hve now,i dont usually talks about politic unless to people that i really really know but im kinda sick with all of these.it can never end until he actually get wat he wants.now another march-up over DNA papers?(ape yg kau takut sgt nie??)n when the police sembur air then ull have another reason to say the goverment mengongkong rakyat.fuh takyahla aku eloborate more.such a bad vibe kate jason.well malaysians,just embrace for more drama.(ps- kenny sia got a point)

its not that i dunt have anythin to update with.god know how much has happened around me.for example now i have another obsession.i can never settle in my rum before i hav a look at 'it'.n i off all the thing,ill have a glance of it first before i leave the room..n now wif all the care n luv ive poured(well water can only be sprinkled once in 2day) it has reward me wif a tiny beautiful sprout of new leaves..


here's the full pic


n really,the time is flying fast as ever.im lookin at my time table n its already entering week 8!! yes WEEK 8.thats 2 month.n my last serious entry was in my 2nd week.kay i dunt really deserve to be forgiven.i deserve all that sindiran.but i dunt know how to make up to it.come on la ramadhans comin kan..marila bermaaf-maafan.hehe.wat im sayin is time flies too fast n there's soo many things goin on.i just dunno where to start...(cheh! another alasan.uhuu~)

ive been reminded on how lucky i am to be in my batch.yeah i always brag about them but seriously i cud never imagine being in other batches in dental school ukm.life's be less fun.last friday hussein called pizza delivery just now for lunch n man i really enjoy stuffing those fattening cheese.totally ignored my 1month diet-plan,its fasting month already.heh.talking bout ramadhan,this year, our annual buka puasa is gonna get a real twist when jason suggested that he wants to join us puasa for a day.he even want to bangun for sahur at 430."ill take the complete module" katernyer...followed by a whispered to himself.."man..can i actually DIE that day?" ahhaha.well jason,dunt worry u wont.

erm..ape lagi ek..haih stuck again..

owh since its ramadhan,per kater ill talk about foods!!hahahah

ive tried the ayam penyet yg lala recommend.n man those chicken was really2 tender.



n yg takbley blah is air2 dier..mine was the bandung..n if u wanna try that ull have to tebalkan muka n say "bang,bagi saya air SODA GEMBIRA" ahahha.mmg euphoric ako minum(edd u seriously need a dose of those.wow it rhyme!! =P)


n last week kot me n iyas had and end to our kenny rogers crave.tgk ako mkn aper..ceaser salad beb.ahaaa.nie bari 1st week in the i-dunt-think-its-working 1mnth diet plan..

see wat i have the following week.urgh..my mom's famous mouth watering lontong..


tu bekfast baru..tak kire lunch agi..then balik kolej..

kg bharu dinner agi..ahahah

erm ape lagi stuff bende giler2 yg ako buat..herm actually byk...for example one of the weeknd we went to downtown.minum2 jus gelas besar..but we end up doing this


malu siout ako kalo tetibe korang dtg lalu kat tepi.ahahah.but i emphasis on the word WE okay..ecal,ria n even ijat pon wat samer.lawak jer kitorang..

n maser konvo ritu,we did konvoi.


its was soo soo much fun until this


nope dunt worry thats not mine.n its not that bad pon..


tgk leh bergigam nagn ako lagi.ahahah

n talking bout crazy stuff, me n my crazy frenz, starting out with this..


pasang videoclip jason mraz's im yours in lecture hall while waiting for next lecturer to come

came out wif this really crazy idea n set up a band n perfom on MUK!!(malam untaian kasih - coating ceremony for the third years as they enter their clinical year).a complete set of drum(cindy),guitar(ela),n even piano(master jason)!the rest r vocals.now u see why i say my batch r the best?huu

the video n other pic is with zuhdi.ill put it up alter when i get my hand on those k.
fhew...its was seriously crazy but it was totally...............

wait for it................

AWESOME!!!!!

heh.laters!!!

p/s-to dental readers..u know ure awesome.n i know ure readin..leave some comments!!
pp/s-to medic 4th years,a sincere gudlak 4 ur exams!!!
ppp/s-to muslim all over the world,happy fasting!!!!