the cycle

Salam

Its full moon tonight.its the cycle of the moon that i enjoy the most.esp ptg tadi hujan n the skies cudnt get any clearer than this.i relize i luv fullmoon.sumthin that i didnt appriciate that much dulu.maybe coz i have more time lookin at it now.just sitting on top of my study table n gaze lazily.looking at the full moon reminds me of cindy.how i tell her about the story when the moon’s gravity pull’s the tide,it also have the same effects on liquid in human’s brain.cousing several hormon to be flush in body n further cousing canine n bulu2 to tremodously grow.an explanation of the warewolf phenomenon.

She buys it.

Cute in a way.she always been the blur girl in the group.n always gets it from us.n she will happily lough together.i then relize.i luv my frens.not that i did not b4.but i think i appreciate them now more than i ever did.even when im still wif aisya its a hard fact that took her a lot(i really mean alot) to swallow that i value them soo much.im surprise that its even posibble to increase.

Shamil blurt to me one day about a cycle in evrione’s life.at first i tought its only one of his merepek-ings but as he goes it occured to me that its a theory that ive never heard b4 n it does explains alot of thing in life.aku rase ko patut paten kan bende ni mil...
According to him the lot of cyle in a our life.big n small.n now i hav remember he’s referring to a smaller circle in my life.the part when a person gets addicted n obsessed wif rock kapak.it sounds stupid(u understand now why i tried to dismiss the conversation at first?).but it makes a whole damn sense.for those of u who enjoys kapak,im sure there a point in ur life where u really admires the kapak’s singer,sings kapak’s song in the bathroom,being shouted at bcoz u plays it too loud, n now ure just listen to it n says ‘sempoi dowh lagu ni..dulu aku suke giler babi...’.but u wudnt put it in ur ipod’s on-the-go playlist.well ppl.my kapak cycle has just started.aku baru dengar lagu2 cam hanya satu persinggahan,perhentian.bayanagn gurauan,takdir dan waktu,untukmu sayang,kamelia..n the list goes.i know pathetic.but i cant stop listening to the now.but according to him this,the kapak fever, will fade.(kudos to iyas yang HANDPICK 80 kapak song in his playlist n gave it to me.a small action at the right time cud change history.well iyas u plays a MAJOR role in my kapak cycle.as well as the other cycle in mylife.)

N now im gazing the bright moon.im slowly moving down to the lower part of the bigger cycle of my teenagers life.i was once the PMUKM.the dental’s faculty MPP.the board of majlis pemimpin.i once implement new rules.new point of view.even re-branding DENSTA.n there i was, last week, sitting at the very end of DSG ktsn watching the glorious ceremony of 4kl’s prelude.i stand there alone for quite some time.looking at mil giving speech,the subprograms booth,the butterflies.... the whole prelude idea was actually mine.well made to reality,perfected by the commitee that year.a small event to launch the grandiosness of 4kl.if theres such word.credit to my superb team that year.4kl07.the best group of organization ive been in.its an honour to work with u guys that time.it has mould me into a diff person.teach me alot in life.good n bad.going back to the prelude,as i was reminiscing n wished the whole team was there beside me to see how 4kl has evolve,leman joined me.n he shares his experiance as a tiny AJK.the whole new concept of pemasaran,the big event with 11 subprogram..he didnt know if ever he can be in the line of ppl standing giving speeches n deligating jobs in the perjumpaan mega. N now, he’s the ex pemantau of a program as big,fiesta citra budaya.he’s in the very line of JAKSA ppl last batch.

N me?

Ive grow old.i still have to remind myself the event was 2 years back...im old.
N another 2 week im going to let go the YDP’s title of DENSTA.leaving the legacy that ive imprint.cam poyo jerk.but i really make it a point as when this finally comes,i want to archieve certain stuff.Alhamdulliah i did.again with the help of my committee.ill extend my full-length gratitude next two week k.

My point is.im leaving the peak.im now returning to that nobody.no one greets me anymore when i arrive in bangi.there’s no reason for pegawai faculty call me anymore,i have no right to lepak2 kat pejabat dekan anymore,theres no need to anyone to listen to me anymore.fuh .wow..
Gosh... n i lost that person yg supports me like hell.=(

it makes me felt kinda stupid but yeah its 4the best...

bajat said...

to ibrahim a.k.a ib a.k.a blow ;p hehehe just kidding pal..

looking at ur personality, the way u treat all of ur friends, which is sgt2 baik (seriously speaking) kadang2 aku terfikir yg ko deserve hidup yg lebih bhg, tp saper tau kan, mungkin cabaran ini yg buatkan anda lebih tabah + bahagia..semua tu Allah yg tentukan, psati ada hikmah..kami di sini ib, warga medic ukm will always be with u, rindukan zaman2 kiter kat ktsn hehehe gelak2 dlm toilet, that was 2 years back, cepatnyer maser berjalan..tp aper2 pun, u will always be in our prayers,inysaAllah

smile always ib and be strong ;)

January 23, 2009 12:01 AM

I beg to differ bajat.i really dunt think that i treat my fren that nice.kalo tak takkan la ader org benci kat aku.i dunno.due to an unexpected event,i randomly tried grab this guy from my fac n then stared him in the eyes n said

“Zul,i need an honest answer.yes or no....in ur knowledge,do u know that if there’s anybody who hates me?yes or no”

Sadly he look away.n says he dunt really know.i have poured evrithing i have.ive sacrificed all the time in the world so that my faculty is seen in a better way.i regret,i really2 regret that sumwhere along the path ive created ppl that hates me.

N aku deserve hidup yg lebih bahagia?bajat.. selain ujian yg aku tgh hadapi skang( n its lifting up.im happier now) i dunt want a happier life.i wudnt want to change wat i have now,my parent,n that bunch of ppl surround me now( that implies to YOU) to anything.i might hav been telling sad part of my life now,bt i assure u i really had aloooooot of fun gak.anyhow,ur comment really put a smile in my face.n naim,lala,fazrul i appreciate ur comment too.
Alle n bebrapa org ckp my blog entries has gotten too emo.bertahan yek korang.if krg tgk aku kat facebook n fac berhepi sakan,this is wat i really felt now.no i havent past that dark tunnel.but now im seing the light.ill get there.il get there soon.

N on a whole diff matter.karpal blows up wat according to him has been kept for quite some time.he said anwar harus bertaubat.directly quote -bertaubat..does he even knows wat that means?but yeah according to him he starts teh trend of ppl start lompat2 parti.now that it backfires on them baru nak tergadah?n whose fault do think when now semorang nak demonstrate? From beribu becoz political issues to 50 becoz harga tol.infront of tanah runtuh till infront of istana kinta? Who start the trend?who pollute these young malay mind?i read this letter from a concerned malay,he said that anwar sepatutnya bertanggungjawab terhadap perpecahan orang melayu sekarang.thats really big.considering melayu sekarang dah berpecah jauuuuuuuh becoz politik.i mean yeah watever issues says the existing goverment faulty.well now when the other group pgg pon nampak byk sgt faulty.rasuah,lompat,scandal.wat im saying is it happen as long as human exist.anywhere whoever.but becoz of certain man’s ambition to become prime minister perpecahan yg KETARA ni berlaku?whose to blame? Doesnt the guy has a point?

Call me bias.wat do i care.ada org called me bitch dah.n even says fuck to me.yeah ure angry,but penah ako ckp fuck kat ko when im angry?haih

Cant wait to get out of all this.....this is tiring.

p/s: had alooot to talk about program kesihatan mulut komuniti in terengganu.not in the mood
pp/s: had alooot of fun at pgl s3.it was superb.but tak amik satu gamba pun
ppp/s: had some updates pasal umah but xde mud coz phone wat hal.n today takder pic pun.later kot